Is it time to stop being a slut?

Is it time to stop being a slut?

Warning language and content may offend some 18+

Dear loved ones, I wanted to tell you about a dream I had last night, well I wasn’t really sleeping yet, just in the beginning stages, when I heard this voice as clear as day:  time to stop your slutting around now Summerhill.  We have given you a year to get all that out of your system.  Your year is up. 

I have been in a depression lately because my divine masculine has not come forward towards me and hardly texts me anymore.  He never phones and he hasn’t kept any of his promises of seeing me.  I have given up.  Not on him and the connection, but on trying so hard and wanting him so much.  I am just going to be. 

There is someone that I could see and have sex with as often as I want, and when I want, he always asks and I say yes or no. He is asking and I have been saying no and putting him off. I told him to find himself a new playmate, but he says he will wait for me and he only wants me. Now what. I consider sex with him as slutting around because I am just a plaything for him, an amusement, a killer of time and boredom. It is not very flattering to my ego or my spirit. We have no spiritual connection. I do not feel him energetically or even think of him except when he is texting me to come over and I have to give him an answer. I do like him and we have fun together and enjoy listening to music and talking about this and that and the other thing. It is all superficial though.

It has been almost exactly a year since I began my life as a slut.  Before this I was virginal, or as close to it as a person can be who has been married twice.  I love the freedom of doing what I want and expressing my sexuality with abandon.  Time to stop you say.  Who are you that says this?  My higher self?  My angel guides? My subconscious? My divine masculine?  I know he wants me to stop caving and giving in to my sexual desires and to stop being a bad girl.   Oh, he likes me as a bad girl alright, but only for him. 

Thank you for listening and I am so happy that I have someone to talk to about this and it means a lot to me that you are here.  Love you all very much, Summerhill Lane

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