All systems down
Dear loved ones,
Help! Everything has shut down – I don’t mean everything, the lights still work, we have water and heat, but my internet connection doesn’t work, my phone doesn’t work. I am cut off from all of you. WordPress doesn’t work. I can’t see your posts or respond to you in anyway. My email doesn’t work. Google doesn’t work. You get the picture.
I can still type this as a word document but it will not be published today. Is this just happening to me? Am I being targeted? Now this is crazy thinking.
No, I am not being targeted, the WIFI is down in this area (my daughter phoned). Silly me. I am way too dependent on technology and panic when I cannot connect with my loved ones.
I have decided to change my attitude and perspective on this twin flame journey that I have been on with my divine masculine. I am going to be happy no matter if he is in my 3D life or not. I cannot wait around hoping and praying for him to want me and make his moves. I surrender to the process. I am not running away but I’m not chasing him anymore either. Hopefully my resolve will stick this time.
Opening the door to another relationship that may come my way instead of blocking, or just be happy by myself. I don’t need anyone else to complete me but I also am very sexual and a partner would be helpful. Smiley face.
The other day a fellow I had been seeing and we had fucked (please excuse my blunt way of talking) a few times (I wrote one of the Slut Diaries stories about him), sent me a message to come out on my balcony and wave to him. He had driven over to my apartment just so he could see me. So very sweet. I had told him before that I wanted to be only friends, and to find himself another girl friend for sex. He is not giving up on me it would seem.
I feel quite healed from being abused in the past and I am not being triggered as much from DM’s silent treatment and neglect. Disappointed for sure, but not sobbing my heart out like I did before. So, you see I am improving.
Thank you for reading my little dialogue today and hopefully it can be uploaded. I love you and miss you when we are not connecting. Hugs & kisses, Summerhill Lane