Laid away or getting laid

Beauty everywhere she looks by Summerhill Lane

Laid away or getting laid

Dear loved ones, please excuse the title of this blog post today.  I actually don’t know what I will type here but will let my fingers do the talking.  How about the weather, a very safe topic?  Oh no, don’t leave yet, I was only kidding.  Fuck the weather.  People are really fascinated by storms and disasters caused by tornadoes and hurricanes and the like.  It is rather fascinating to watch I must admit as long as we are at a safe distance.

Last night I did a search and read all of the emails from divine masculine that we sent back and forth since we started sending emails.  There were many more text messages but I had deleted those already.  I wish I hadn’t.  Why do I want to torture myself?   

I could see a definite pattern in our correspondence.  I did most of the blabbing.  Smiley face.  He responded of course, but he didn’t tell me much.  For example, there was one email where I poured out my heart to him about this unexplainable love and passion I had for him.

His response was: Hmmmmmmmm.

He used that same sound for a lot of my questions. 

Or if I pressed him. 

I am thinking.

Sorry for going down memory lane with this.  I am not knocking my divine masculine in any way; he is fabulous and I just have to think of him and I am immediately wet and wanting him. 

But I have been asking myself, should I be laid away just wanting and craving divine masculine, or should I live my life?  Because, to be honest with you, I really need to get laid.  I am laughing out loud now because I know this same affliction is running rampant amongst most of the population in lockdown.

Of course, I am going to live my life.  Fuck that nonsense of carrying a torch and living in a dream world hoping and praying for us to unite.  I also believe in divine timing and if we are meant to be together then there will be no stopping this union. But in the meantime,  I want to live, to love, to share, to grow, to help, to heal, to be present in every moment until there are no more. 

Thank you for being with me today my loved ones.  I love you truly.  Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane

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18 thoughts on “Laid away or getting laid

  1. I absolutely think you need to get out there and live your life. If he wants to be a part of your life (which is a privilege btw) then he will tell you so when he is ready. If not then it is his loss because you are AMAZING! You’ve put yourself out there on more than one occasion. You’ve poured your heart out to him in the 3D. You’ve also given generously of yourself in the 5D. You’ve been genuine. You’ve given yourself to this journey and this experience. Now it is time for you to give back to yourself. To spend some time doing you for a bit. Healing yourself, loving yourself is not a betrayal and will in reality benefit your twin as well.

    I am like proper annoyed at your DM atm. Hmmm as a response to a heartfelt confession? Fuck that.

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    1. Thank you beautiful poet. I feel healed from all my buried wounds and am at peace knowing I have done all I can do to share myself and my love with my divine masculine. Now it is up to him. I am not betraying him by wanting to be loved and sharing my life and experiences with others. DM’s Hmmmmm response just showed me he was not willing to tell me anything and he was lost for words. It hurt at the time though. Sending you lots of love xoxoxo

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  2. I loved the title. Life is to be lived.
    “I want to live, to love, to share, to grow, to help, to heal, to be present in every moment until there are no more.”
    I agree with the above lines and thank dear friend for sharing your wonderful words and thoughts.

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  3. I think u deserve to treat urself like the woman u r. If u need handling than find somebody to handle. We r human my artsy Canadian sista. And I agree with mindlovemisery….hmmmm is not a very good response in my book either. My saying….life isnt a dress rehearsal so what r u waiting for??? Life is short. Be happy 😘

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    1. Thank you darling for the very welcome advice, much appreciated. I know I can not afford to waste my life waiting on someone, that is just stupidity.🤪
      I like how you said that, “if you need handling then find someone to handle “. You have made me laugh because boy do I need handling ha ha.
      Sending you lots of love ❤️

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