My Twin Flame Journey is Stalled
Dear loved ones,
I just got home from a few days away, only a few hours outside the city. It is wonderful for me to have ‘Ronnie’, my little blue Honda because now I can come and go as I please. I love traveling. It has always been my dream to just jump in my car with a credit card and a bottle of water and take off, no plans, no suitcase, no nothing. Anything I need I would buy as I went. This would not be very practical but it is a dream. My first husband was an over-packer. Everything plus the kitchen sink would have to come with us when we went on a road trip. It was ridiculous all the items he insisted on bringing along that were never needed or used as it always turned out. I guess I am a minimalist, and he certainly wasn’t.
Please excuse my blabbing away about nothing as I am prone to do. Actually, my hands are on the keyboard and they have a mind of their own and I have to check back and see what I have written.
I have been thinking about my divine masculine. I think about him every day, and I cannot not think about him. I close my eyes and I see him before me. I can feel his arms around me sometimes too. This is the strangest connection with someone I have ever had in my life. I shouldn’t be in love with him. He has done nothing to deserve my love. But it doesn’t matter and I don’t care that he has never shown up for me as it doesn’t change a thing. He is my twin. I wonder if I always will be in love with him even if years go by without a word?
I was thinking of sending him an email, or text message, but that would be me just chasing him again and I can’t go back to that. It is demeaning to always be the one showing the love and pleading for love in return. It is up to him now.
If anyone had mentioned a twin flame journey a year ago, I wouldn’t know what they were talking about. It boggles my mind how different I am now from what I was just a short year ago. I used to be so shy and shut down, afraid to speak my mind and express my opinion. This journey has changed me. I am opened up and blossomed. It is very hard to explain even to myself the transformation.
I just wonder what am I supposed to do now. What is my mission? Make this world a better place, raise the vibration, help humanity and the planet? I thought my twin and I would be working together in some way to achieve this. It is not looking like we will ever be together in the here and now. Our union is stalled.
Part four of the Domination series is waiting to be written. I have to live the experience and feel it in order to write about it. Usually when I write erotica, I dream the story into existence, become Imogen (or another character) and feel everything she feels. This particular story line is different. I have never personally experienced edging. I have never been with a Dom other than my divine masculine. I hope to have some really good dreams so I can continue writing. Ha ha.
This blog post is all over the place tonight. I am sun burned and tired from too much fun in the surf and sun. Tomorrow I start back to work. First day after four months off because of covid. It will be good to get back working again. I asked if I could wear a face shield instead of a mask, because I cannot breathe with the mask on, and that is not going to be an issue. So, thank god for that.
Thank you for reading my post if you got this far. I hope you like the painting at the beginning and at least there is something to look at as this writing is not much of anything. I love you. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane