Not Unrequited Love

Looking down from Vlasic Brdo by Summerhill Lane

Not Unrequited Love

Dear loved ones,

Today was my second day back at work at the grocery store and things have changed quite a bit in the four months that I had been away.  I didn’t travel anywhere, nor did anyone else, but I just stayed home and played it safe.  I don’t think we are considered front line workers anymore now that a few more places are opening up, and the store has taken away the extra $2/hr danger pay.  They didn’t call it that, they called it hero pay. 

I don’t really want to write about work.  I want to write about love. 

Today, I pulled out my phone and found a photo of divine masculine, one he had sent me over a year ago, and just looked into his eyes for a moment.  I felt comforted by doing this.  You may think that I am acting like I am lovesick, and you would be right. This post is kind of a repeat of things I have said so many times about this connection with divine masculine.  I cannot call it a relationship, because we are not together.  Hell, we are not even talking to each other.  I stopped messaging him about four months ago, and he has not taken the initiative to even say hello. 

Yet, I am deeply in love with him.

You know I could bore you all to death with this type of writing, but I will be kind and continue this in my journal.  Maybe I will do his name is calligraphy.  Ha ha.  I could also carve it into my desk top.  Wouldn’t that be hilarious.  I do have fun just laughing at myself and how foolish I am acting.

This is not an unrequited love, even though you might think so.  I can’t call it unconditional love either, because I don’t think such a thing exists on this plane, but it is quite close to this.  It is the purest feeling of caring for someone else that I have ever experienced, and it is not dependent on whether he loves me back.  Bla bla bla.  Sorry.  I like to wax long about this. 

This is going to be a short post today (aren’t you happy?).  Thank you for reading.  I love you.  Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane

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9 thoughts on “Not Unrequited Love

    1. Hi Kinge. Thank you for your comments on my post. You are right that I have felt pressure to explain this love in order to understand it myself. Yes, it is good that things are opening up. Sending you love ❤️❤️

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  1. It is so good to dwell on love, isn’t it? It takes our mind away from work and other things that we think are so practical in comparison. But what can truly compare with love? That’s why I love writing poems and stories, if only to dream and dwell on love just a little while longer. Hugs and kisses back.

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    1. Dear Gentleman Dave, yes really love is the bomb. There is not much to compare and it is wonderful to dwell on it and also to write about it. It lifts the energy of ourselves and also of others. It changes things for the better. This is why I love your writing and prose. It is true and delightful and healing ❤️❤️❤️💋💋💋🤗🤗

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  2. “It is the purest feeling of caring for someone else that I have ever experienced, and it is not dependent on whether he loves me back.” – that is true love!! What you have together, mutually, might not be true love, and I certainly don’t think it is, based on what you’ve said about his actions. But you are *sending him* true love, like you do send to so many around WP. *You* are embodying the divine! And you love the divine in others. I’ve been wanting to say this, as a friend, and I hope you don’t mind: imho, this person is not *your DM.* I don’t think any one being is, for any of us, and I believe it’s dangerous to think otherwise. Rather, you love what is divine *in* him. That’s just my two cents though.
    Love you sister!!! And I loved this post!! 💛🤩❤️😊👯‍♂️💃🏼💃🏼

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    1. Thank you darling Lia for speaking your mind. I do see the divine in DM and always have right from the start. He asked me one time why I loved him and all I could answer is I saw his soul and how beautiful he was that I couldn’t not love him.
      Thank you for your very kind words, this means a lot to me. Sending you so much love to you my soul sister ❤️❤️❤️❤️💋💋💋💋💋😁😁😁😁

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