Dear loved ones,
Boy is it hot here. I have been melting the past few days (and longer), and my fan that just blew hot air around finally called it a day. I knew it was on its last legs because it wouldn’t start right away and once in awhile it would spin a little. There are air conditioners in the other two bedrooms, but I chose not to have one because I can’t sleep with the steady drone of the motor. Now I can’t sleep because of the heat. A no win situation.
You really don’t want to listen to this nonsense writing and I understand. I don’t know what to say to you really. I feel like giving up and closing down and just concentrate on painting. The one I love and have been writing about here seems very far away. He has his own journey and I am not part of it. How do I let go?
There is someone lately that I have become friendly with. I wrote about him before when I described him as almost perfect. He may be perfect for someone, but not for me. I am not attracted to him in the way that he wants. There is no chemistry. Besides, he still has a spouse who he lives with although in another part of the house. He says it is just for convenience and for financial reasons. But he pays me lots of attention and we do things together, which is very nice.
Also, Mr. Three has started phoning and facetiming me again. He is really making an effort, but I hardly care anymore. I don’t know what is the matter with me, normally I would be a bit excited about the possibilities with him.
This is a short post today as I have to get ready for work. At least it is cooler there and I can keep my mind occupied with helping others. The painting at the beginning is a work in progress and just the female half of the couple I saw in the park a few weeks ago and asked if I could take of photograph of them for a painting. I am using oil as a medium and it takes a very long time to dry but I like using it very much. When it is finished, I will show you. Thank you so much for being with me today. I love you very much. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxox