Thoughts of Dying

Thoughts of Dying

Dear loved ones,

Today was a very bad day for me.  I thought I was going to die.  I actually almost did, death by drowning.  No, I wasn’t anywhere exotic swimming in warm water off a wind-swept beach. 

I was only in my own bathtub. 

A severe allergic reaction to some medication almost did me in.  I am still feeling the affects now, some 10 hours later.  I don’t want to die yet to be sure, and I am very weepy and melancholy.  What a cry baby.  I am not crying for myself but only that my divine masculine will never know how much I have loved him. 

Very melodramatic.  Tomorrow maybe I will laugh at myself, but tonight all I can do is cry. 

Thank you for being here with me in this dark moment.  I love you.  Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxo

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31 thoughts on “Thoughts of Dying

    1. Thank you for your concern, and I am feeling some better today. There were hormones in the medication that I reacted to. I thought I was having a stroke and maybe did have a small one. I will see my doctor. Thank you. Sending you hugs and love❤️❤️🤗🤗


  1. Oh my goodness… that sounds terrible!!!! I hope you are okay. Does the person you call divine masculine read this blog or know of it? If so, pretty sure he would know how much you care. :)) Another amazing artwork from you… I would love to see these all blown up and in a gallery some day. Stunning. ❤️

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    1. Dear darling Lia, thank you for your love and concern. My divine masculine has read my posts in the past, at least the ones I sent him specially. I would love to have my art pieces blow up and shown in a gallery. Something to strive for. Btw, I found your comment in the spam folder, so thank you for alerting me to go looking for it. I wouldn’t want to miss anything written by my little sister. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

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