Divine Feminine Raw and Real
Dear loved ones,
Hello from an overcast Toronto Saturday, cool but pleasant, perfect sleeping in weather. Autumn is in the air for the second day in a row. I am a bit sad that the hot days of summer are almost over though. It has been well over a year now that I went through a transformation. No, I did not have a sex change. Ha ha. But I did start having sex after an abstinence of ten years. And I had it with abandon. Such slutty and wonton behaviour, but glorious and liberating too. I do not feel any shame or shyness in telling you all about it. What an adventure it has been.
It was during this time that I met many marvelous people, most of them men (as if you didn’t know what I was going to say (smiley face), and among them was my divine masculine. We were supposed to have this adventure together, but it didn’t work out that way. Timing was not right for either of us.
Like a compressed spring finally released, I bounced around and broke some hearts and had mine broken too.
This really sounds corny.
I don’t know if I broke any hearts except for maybe, “He didn’t like his Portrait”, he told me his heart was broken.
Since the pandemic shutdowns and lockdowns, I have had time to settle down and reassess and examine what I have been doing. I stopped having sex, as most people have done, except those in marriages and relationships, but maybe they stopped having sex too because of being in each other’s faces for too long. I stopped talking and keeping up any kind of connection with the men in my life. I kept my legs closed.
My legs had actually been closed before covid started as DM had asked of me. It was very hard because I was craving and longing, but it got easier as the months wore on. I was proud of myself for my self control.
Passion and lust are smouldering under my skin again but with one big difference. It is focused in one direction, and one direction only – west.
Thank you for reading my post today and also for all your love and kindness as I recover from a near fatal incident. I love you all very much. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxo