Dear loved ones,
It has been quite a few days since I have written anything here. Actually, I don’t even know if I have anything to write now either, but I do have a painting to share. I think it is finished, or at least I need to leave it for awhile before I add the transparent top coat to seal and make it shine like an oil painting. I am not really happy with it as I wanted to capture something special and all I can see is a likeness and nothing else.
This is a portrait of Mr. Perfect. I have been spending quite a bit of time with him, just hanging out and doing nothing in particular. He is very nice and I like him. But there is no chemistry, at least for me. He apparently feels something besides friendship, which is all I am offering him. Maybe it is just a guy thing. (a guy will jump anything that moves). This is kind of true and if I am out to lunch about this please tell me.
He told me that the ball was in my court, but he is sure throwing a lot of balls into my court too. Ha ha.
I am missing my divine masculine.
He is living his life and carrying on and I am not part of it and may never be. It has been my wish that we would eventually come together in some type of union. Regardless, I love him with out condition and with no expectation.
Still, I do not want to live the rest of my life alone.
The reason I am calling this post ‘Chocolate’, is because of something Mr. Perfect said. He said “once you have tasted chocolate you will never go back to whipped cream”. I just laughed at him because what he doesn’t know and I didn’t tell him, is that I have already tasted lots of chocolate. Ha ha.
Thank you for reading my post today and for looking at my painting. I love you. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxox