Lying to Myself
There are five men
In my mind
One in my heart
One in my bed
One in the vicinity
One in the distance
One on the horizon
Need to clear and clean my space
Wipe it down
Throw some out
Can’t keep it up anymore
Must stop lying to myself
That I am not juggling
Keeping them in play
I have tried to let them all go
Really tried
I want to be alone
But I am lying to myself
That I am pure and innocent
Just a sweet little thing
Angelic
A divine feminine
I attract and don’t release
Forever caught
They will never be the same
I am lying to myself that
I want to be alone
You deserve someone worthy of you
Until you believe that it won’t happen and the games will continue. You didn’t ask for my opinion.
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Equipsblog, I love your opinion. You are right of course. Love love love to you.
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Back at ya.
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Don’t we all to some degree? These little realizations can be important moments of growth. Nice work.
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Thank you sudrakarma for your comments. You are right about important moments of growth. I am going to be really tall. Smiley face. Sending you love.
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❤ Not many of us really want to be alone….not many of us want to be torn five ways ❤
But finding that ideal somewhere in between the two can be quite a challenge.
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Dear Jenna, it is so nice to hear from you. Of course I do not want to be alone, also do not want to be torn in 5 different directions. Finding a balance is the solution. If only the one in my heart would make a case for himself. ha ha. Sending you lots of love and hugs too.
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❤ ❤ ❤
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Yes, we don’t want to be alone.
I also told myself this lie over and over again until I believed it.
But only to make sense of my despair, of the misery in the world and the lack of love.
*Sending you lots of love and hugs and kisses*
I am not like this, at least haven’t been in a while. Only sometimes.
In the open wide I mean… I am too scared of people and the way they could react or the way I could seem. So I just act like a robot. Or like a puppet or like as if I am a freak. And I feel like each of these things. Not now, not when I am making my posts. But still, still I am scared. I am scared because so far it always has been this way. That people didn’t understand me, at least people I could meet.
Thank you for your honesty, my majesty. ❤
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John, you are just the best. Thank you for saying ‘my majesty’. Sending you many hugs and lots of love. I enjoy your posts very much although sometimes (or many times) I do not understand the full significance of what you write.
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Don’t worry. As long as all will be good. Stay you. 🙂
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Thank you John, and you stay you.
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We might want to be alone at times, but not lonely. It’s difficult at times, isn’t it. 💗
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Hi Writer of Words. I am all over the map today, wanting to be alone, yet craving attention. Maybe it is the rainy weather. I push and pull at the same time. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
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love this
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Thank you Mikki, ❤️❤️
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Wowwwww… Nice art n nice post… I love doing arts too ❤️
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Thank you Soni. I love your art too.
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You did a wonderful job. Always remember to write from the heart.
Heather Kendall
https://www.encouragementforthejourney20.com
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Thank you for your comments and encouragement Heather. Sending you much love.
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