Dear loved ones,
Hello from a sunny, warm Toronto, Canada. It is 21degrees Celsius this afternoon and I am laying in the sunshine as it flows in and heats up my bedroom (my office and art studio). I should be outside walking Gibson (Pomeranian/Papillon) and getting some air and exercise, and I will shortly.
There is something important that I wanted to share with you today, at least it feels important. This idea of allowing. I do not know what that really means when it comes to this twin flame journey I have been on. There have been terms passed around that sound similar, for example; unconditional love, letting go, surrendering, no expectations.
Do I love my divine masculine unconditionally? I would have to say I do not, because I still focus on conditions. I want to see his face and hear his voice, and have an explanation for his silence. To have union with him in someway shape or form.
Have I let go of him? Again, the answer is no. I think about him every day and often all day long.
Have I surrendered? I don’t know what that means.
No expectations? To be honest, I expected him to respond to my text message. He didn’t and I was hurt, so that is proof that I do have expectations.
I am happy with my life as it is. There are men around that want to be with me and although it is an exaggeration to say I have to beat them off with a stick, it is still funny to say it like that. Ha ha. I have two dates scheduled for this weekend and all I can think about is how to get out of it and see neither one.
The painting at the start is of a rose (obviously) and this rose represents this journey, this passion, this mystery, this unbelievable connection that cannot be denied. It has taken up all the available room in my heart, but my heart is also expanding and evolving.
I know this sounds like nonsense, and maybe it is. I know what I know regardless of whether I can explain it or not. Thank you for reading and being here with me on this platform. I love you, hugs & kisses, Summerhill Lane
P.S. I hope you like this painting of the rose (my most recent, done in acrylic), and a few other ones that are included. Kisses.