Only one twin flame?
Dear loved ones,
Day after Halloween, which was a non event, at least in this area of Toronto. My grandson, who is 13, drew on a beard and mustache with his mother’s new eyeliner, donned a red baseball hat (Raptors) and a red t-shirt (also Raptors), a black Thrasher Hoodie, and wondered around downtown with one of his friends, watched the anti-mask march at Yonge and Bloor for awhile and then came home. Of course, the face mask covered up the splendid job he did drawing in facial hair. I asked him who he was dressing as, and it was some guy I never heard of who has a youtube channel and talks smack. Bets me.
Yesterday, when I was parking in my parking spot behind our apartment building, I pulled in too close to the dividing brick wall and scratched the back-passenger door again. The first time I scratched it was about 2 hours after picking up my new vehicle from the dealers. I cried my head off and couldn’t bring myself to park there again for almost 5 months even though I had paid several months in advance for the parking space. I parked on the street all summer and 3 or 4 parking tickets later at $40 a pop, decided it was about time to face my fears and try parking back there again. I was doing pretty good and getting comfortable until yesterday.
I have decided to go through my insurance company to get the damages fixed and I’m happy that I didn’t rush the repairs when it first happened. Actually, my friend Mr. Three offered to fix my car. I paid for the paint and the supplies (gave him the money to buy them) and he was going to do the work as soon as the paint arrived. That was in June and now it is November 1. He had a lot going on with his father being sick and dying recently, so I do understand, but something was not right and I was always put on the back burner. I have given up on him as a lost cause even though he messages me once in awhile to tell me how much he needs some TLC and reminding me of how good we were together. It has been over a year since we were sexually active and I do not really care anymore if I ever see him again. He has put me on hold way too long. Besides he is not my divine masculine.
Now I am coming to the point of this pointless post. Ha ha. Can we have more than one twin flame connection? I have been listening to others’ opinions about this very thing and some say absolutely not – you can only have one; while others state that a person may experience this intense connection with more than one person. Maybe not more than one at a time, but if one doesn’t come into union then another will be provided.
I don’t know. My personal experience is all I can go on and talk to you about. For me there has only been the one and one is certainly enough.
Thank you for being here with me on this page, as I talk about ruining my car, and what a lousy parker I am. Smiley face. I tried to write erotica today, but nothing appeared on the page. I did write a poem which I will include at the bottom. It is titled: Looking for a man with balls”. It doesn’t deserve its own post. It is not post worthy in my opinion, but hope you like it nonetheless.
I love you. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxo
Looking for a man with balls
Don’t need another husband
Had two that will do
Don’t need another toy boy
Time for games is done
Don’t care for needy and greedy
clingy and toxic
Get out of my face
The human race can do better than this
What I want but do not need
Is a man with balls
Stands up for himself and is not eviscerated
Vulnerable but not in an emotional way
Cries but not on my shoulder like I can solve his problems
Speaks up for himself with confidence
Be a leader
Be a protector
Be peaceful but bold
Won’t take bull crap from me or any other
Be my partner
Be my equal
Be my lover
Are you my man with a pair?
Have a lovely day all you out there
Love the art.
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Thank you Anonymole❤️❤️
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I can’t give you a definite answer to that question Summerhill. Every person is different. Every relationship is different. ❤ But it's clear that divine masculine is deep inside of your bones.
I was absolutely intoxicated with Simon. He came into my life and whisked me off my feet and made love to me like I had never know before. He was deep in my heart. The pain of his polygamy was torment, but I still loved him profoundly and was prepared to suffer shame as he kept in contact with other woman anc occasionally met up with them. I would have given up everything for him, if he had wanted it. He did not. He wanted to be able to roam where the breeze took him without a partner to slow him down. He saw no need to restrict himself from any pleasure. I even contemplated whether I was prepared to be in a permanent relationship with him while tolerating his wanting to have sex with other women. I thought I was willing, but the truth is that life would have made me sick to the core.
The combination of events that allowed me to ease the attachment were the geographic element. He moved to another country. The realization that he did love me very much but he loved his freedom more. And the timing of Ben making it clear that he had been respectfully handing back for a long time but had very strong feelings for me. I think that those three helped the profound bond I had with him ease. We are still lovers mentally. We stay in contact via phone and email and I write beautiful erotic stories about him, while he drawers and paints. I hope that bond will always be there. I sent him a short email an hour ago to say how hard it is to be far from him when the world is going crazy. I want to be sure he is ok. I would be devastated if he was struggling (but he always promises me he is good).
My bond with Ben has deepend. I liked and admired him, trusted him and got excited by him. When we started having sex, my emotions did intensify for him. But with Ben, every day every week, every month I feel something stronger growing. And the truth is that what I have with Ben is better than what I had with Simon. I am happier and more deeply satisfied. Ben has brought me a peace, a security and a feeling of being treasured I did not have before. And we have so much fun. I also appreciate his support when I am not myself. He has got to know me well and he seems to understand me better that I do! The myriad different ways he shows himself as more than worthy of my loyal love – I can't compare him to Simon…for Ben is superior and I want to be with hm. I won't stop loving Simon though, and if he is ever in need I would go to him. I just know that if I did have a free choice over who to spend forever with, it would be Ben.
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Hi Jenna, so wonderful to hear from you and thank you for sharing your love story. I sure do understand the dynamics of your connection with Simon. Intense love and passion but not a good fit in the long run. Ben, on the other hand is more compatible. Are they both twin flames? I don’t know. Have they both made you grow to the best version of yourself thus far?
And these labels are not so important anyway. For me my divine masculine has been the only one that has completely changed me and helped me heal old childhood wounds and fears. I am almost totally different even from 2 years ago.
Sending you hugs and lots of love ❤️❤️❤️🤗🤗🤗
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I think Mel talks about the term twinflame being a misnomer because the soul can be in multiple fragments. That doesn’t exclude the possibility of it just being two though. I think it is complicated enough with one partner 😂 I lean more to the one twin and that could just be preference or it could just be that in my case it is so. I think you will have some feel of it yourself. I had never heard that theory that if you don’t achieve union another partner will appear. My thoughts on this are so. If there are multiples a particular order of coming together might be in the highest good. So you meet the one who is further along spiritually so together you can provide support to each other and to the less spiritually evolved parts. Though to me it sounds more a matter of meeting a soul teacher, someone who can help grow and heal you or keep you company until your twin is ready.
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Dear darling beautiful poet. It is an interesting question but for me personally I have only met one person who has opened me up completely and who I have experienced the bubble love phase with such an intense spiritual and sexual connection. Will it happen again if my DM and I fall apart, I do not know.
Or will I just continue on this awakening journey on my own? Also, I do not know. Many others have said that union with your tf is not the main focus anyway. It is healing and changing and making this world a better place because of being able to love from the heart centre.
I only have questions and not many answers. I trust that it will be as it is meant to.
Love you sweetheart ❤️❤️❤️
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I am the same as you for me this a once in a lifetime experience. I have not experienced this with anyone else and would not wish to. There is a quote by Oscar Wilde which I can only remember the gist of but basically each time we fall in love it is brand new, it is the only time we have ever truly loved, because with each relationship we discover something within ourselves we had not known to exist, something which is totally original, and perhaps is born from the love itself. Love is like a rebirth. I always thought this a very beautiful way of looking at love. I do not like to minimize my experiences to help myself move on. I want to remember them fully. I want to remember the good and the bad. I want to cherish them because they have brought me to this moment. I have grown through those experiences and although they do not compare to what I am experiencing now, I could not compare them to each other either. I have never had the same relationship twice. When I first heard the theory of multiple twinflames I was triggered by it. I wanted my once in a lifetime experience, I wanted my DM. I was also triggered whenever the prayers included someone better but then I realized that there is nothing to fear because I already know what is in my heart, I know my truth and in my truth he is the only, the one I have and always will choose. It was because I included someone better in a prayer that my twin came into my life in the first place.
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Dear darling beautiful poet, I too was triggered when I first heard others saying that my tf may just be a catalyst and that I should just learn from it and move on. I just sobbed at the thought of never seeing or hearing from him again. Even now I tear up typing this.
Every lover is an experience that helps us grow, and I understand. But this experience is high above it all.
Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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It is yes beyond anything I could have dreamed =)
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Love the painting, sorry ‘bout the paint job, and how can one be vulnerable, but not emotionally? Trying to keep my balls. 😉
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Hi Sudrakarma, thank you for your comments and questions and for liking my painting. How can a man be vulnerable without being emotional? There is a difference between emotions expressed from the solar plexus and those coming from the heart. A heart is open and loving and vulnerable but not in a needy painful way. I really don’t know how to explain it, but there is a difference. Vulnerable and all my love is exposed, or vulnerable and all my pain is open for inspection.
I hope you hang onto your balls😁😁😁❤️
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Me too. 😉
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In my personal opinion the odd scratch or two add character to a car. You also find other motorists give you more room/respect. Partners? Much the same. The odd scratch or two adds dignity.
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Thank you Fredrick for giving me a new perspective for the scratches on my car. I have named him Ronnie, and I already have apologized for ruining his good looks. 😁❤️
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It should be regarded as a duelling scar, and therefore a sign of great honour. James Bond, as I recall, was so marked. Oh, yes, and the poetry is legendary, BTW, in case I didn’t mention it…
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Dear Frederick, I will from now on think of the scratches as duelling scars. Thank you for this as it makes a big difference. Also, I am very happy you liked my poem.❤️❤️🤗🤗
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SMiLes i have a Honda
Civic Same Color As
Yours Bright Blue Right
After We Bought it
Kids in the
Next Car over
Slammed their
Door into
It Playing
With Each Other
Not Paying Attention
My Wife Got Mad
But it Didn’t
Phase
me
i was
No Longer
Just A Metal
Car i noticed
i Am Human
And the
Car
Nothing
But A Slave
That Serves me
i wasn’t
Always
This way…
i used to
Be The
Sports
Car
And
SUV
Perfect
Without
A Blemish
Yes Just A
Human Metal Machine🍃
Not
Anymore🍃
Anyway my
Wife is Demanding
A New SUV Hehe
But who
Needs
A New
Car in
Pandemic
Sized Travels
Smiles So
Many
Silver Linings😁
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Match match, same blue Honda Civic with some blemishes. Can’t sweat it.
Thank you, love your poetry. ❤️❤️❤️
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SMiLes Facing Death
3 Times in
Life Laying
On A Table
Cold
Dead
Metal
In the
Distant
Hearing
The Sweet
Words of my
Wife And Sister
Still Breathing
Connection
Then
Suddenly
Realizing
How little
i Appreciated
All Blemishes
Of Life And
Actually
Surviving
That And
The Rest
To Appreciate
For Existence
In All THaT is
DarK
Through
Life This
Is Why
We
Do Live
iN LiGHT
Happy Bright
Blue Honda
Civic
Scratches
And Dents
Indeed Aging
Grace Beauty of Death
My
FRiEnD
Makes
Now
Ever Green
With Never
Ending
CoLoRinG
NeW LiGHTS
NoW Christmas
Tree Forever Now
CoLoRinG
WiNTeR
Fa LLSuMMeRHiLLSMiLES
SPRinG WiTHiN🎄🙌🎶😁
Ever Green
iN
Deed🍃
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