Still in Love but all I hear is nothing
Dear loved ones,
Well I have started back to work at the grocery store and I am liking it. I felt very comfortable, relaxed, and competent multi-tasking in the customer service department. I could do five things at once with ease. What has happened to me? Has my mind expanded? I used to be nervous working in that department because so much was expected, but now I am cool, calm and collected. Of course, I have only been back to work for two days, so this glow may fade. Ha ha.
A friend had asked me to do a sketch of her divine masculine without a photo of him or any idea of what he looked like, just by closing my eyes and seeing who appeared before me. Well I tried this and asked if he would show himself so I could do this sketch. I did a drawing all right but it is not him. You may all guess who it is that showed up and you would be right.
I did a painting from the sketch and will include it now. I really do not want to talk about divine masculine here anymore because I have surrendered this connection. I trust that we will come together at some time, or we may not. I cannot force anything between us even though I have wanted and craved.
I came across a poem today by Rumi that I would like to quote as it sums up how I have felt about DM.
“You left ground and sky weeping,
mind and soul full of grief.
No one can take your place in existence or in absence.”
Here is another poem by Rumi that means so much to me.
“I choose to love you in silence…
For in silence I find no rejection,
I choose to love you in loneliness…
For in loneliness no one owns you but me,
I choose to adore you from a distance…
For distance will shield me from pain,
I choose to kiss you in the wind…
For the wind is gentler than my lips,
I choose to hold you in my dreams…
For in my dreams, you have no end…
Rumi (1207 – 1273)
Thank you for reading my short post today and I hope you like my painting. I love you. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxo