Dear loved ones,
I have been away from my blog for several days, maybe a week now at least. I even put it on private while I reassessed the situation. I have decided to change the theme. No longer will I be talking about my twin flame journey.
I am still very much in love with the person that I call my divine masculine and this connection is as strong as ever at least from my perspective. What has changed is the idea of twin flame and the religious New Age attachments to this concept. For me it has been a rabbit hole and a very big distraction. New Age is a religion in another form and I have heard it called the New Cage.
Also, this may sound weird but I believe that the strong sexual energy I have been feeling for almost two years now and that I thought was coming from my divine masculine could be from another source, an entity. I craved these intense sexual feelings and have been overwhelmed with them. This does not feel right. Something is wrong here. I want to experience these full body orgasms with my divine masculine in his presence and not alone in my own bed.
What I am saying here is very personal and does not in any way reflect on what others are experiencing on their own journey. We have our own path to follow.
I did another cord cutting visualization for divine masculine to see what would happen and if I would stop loving him. I still love him very much but the craving has lessened considerably which is a relief. So, I accept that I love him and will leave it at that. Love is love.
Mr. Perfect has been very consistent in his affection and he is growing on me. (not literally, of course) Now I am laughing from the visual.
The title at the beginning is just in reference to some flower paintings that I am showing here again. You have seen many of them before and I feel bad that I have not painted anything new to share with you. The oil painting, I started over three weeks ago sits and stares out at me (it is a portrait of a boy) in an accusing manner. Finish me it says. I will, I promise. Today would be a good day to paint but I have other plans. The sun calls to me and I just must lay out on my balcony and get some needed vitamin D.
Working has been quite hard on me these past weeks with the standing long hours in one spot. My legs and feet ache. I think I need new shoes. The ones I wear to work are Clarks and are excellent but they are getting worn down from use. It just occurred to me that this post is running the gambit from religion, entity attachment, cord cutting, love and sex, painting and now talking about shoes. Right brain connections at their finest. Smiley face.
Thank you for being here and reading my post today. I can feel your energy and I hope that you can feel the love I am sending out to you. Hugs & Kisses, Summerhill Lane xoxo