Deeply Disturbing

Deeply Disturbing Dear loved ones, Today I had an email from my step-daughter asking me if I thought her father was an evil person.  At first, I wanted to sugar coat and lay out all the positive parts, but I soon changed my mind and had to be truly honest with her as I amContinue reading “Deeply Disturbing”

Laid away or getting laid

Laid away or getting laid Dear loved ones, please excuse the title of this blog post today.  I actually don’t know what I will type here but will let my fingers do the talking.  How about the weather, a very safe topic?  Oh no, don’t leave yet, I was only kidding.  Fuck the weather.  PeopleContinue reading “Laid away or getting laid”

A love story

He woke me up then left A love story Dear loved ones, Today is a better day for me, full of sunshine, and music and laughter.  I have been making a fool of myself in the park again.  Yes, I have been dancing (break dancing) to the song “Everybody”, by the Back-Street Boys.  Of course,Continue reading “A love story”

Just a fuck friend

Warning language and content may offend some 18+ please Just a fuck friend Dear loved ones, Hello.  Good evening.  It was a very cold day today and a bit on the rainy side but this never stopped me from going out for a couple of brisk walks / runs with Gibson leading the way.  HeContinue reading “Just a fuck friend”

Birthday Blues

Birthday Blues Dear loved ones, Well today is my birthday (May 9, 2020).  I don’t care for my birthday all that much because I don’t like the number I am turning.  It is only a number, right?  But it is a high number and I don’t like it.  It does not match my presentation.  WhatContinue reading “Birthday Blues”

A little death

The little death Dear loved ones, good morning.  Well actually it is afternoon here in the overcast and gloomy city of Toronto.  I did go for a walk in the park earlier this morning and took Gibson out for his run.  He sure loves chasing his ball and also the large black squirrels that tauntContinue reading “A little death”

It’s a wonderful life

It’s a wonderful life Dear loved ones, and you are, very loved.  I started this blog mainly to help myself work through this grand love story (I am laughing because there has been way more crying than loving).  I never really thought anyone would care to read my words. It’s been almost a year agoContinue reading “It’s a wonderful life”

I am sick of myself

I am sick of myself Dear loved ones, I am sick of myself.  I am sick of chasing my divine masculine and sending him messages, which he never responds to in any way.  Sick of my craving for his attention.  Sick of wanting to be loved by someone who doesn’t love me back. I needContinue reading “I am sick of myself”

Loved by Proxy 2

Warning sexual language and content 18+ please Loved by Proxy – 2 Scene Four – The Diners Imogen allowed one tear to roll down her right cheek.  Mr. Proxy leaned in and taking his pale-yellow linen hanky from the breast pocket of his dark sports jacket gently wiped the tear away.  My god he wasContinue reading “Loved by Proxy 2”

Striped to the bone

Striped to the bone love so strong baffles the mind heart is clinging groin is weeping sending senseless messages day or night No response like a slap in the face Master your slave is in disgrace? Pride and ego have erased Last attempt must let you go Cutting the cord that held me taunt LovedContinue reading “Striped to the bone”